Lately,

Things have been just a little on the stressful side. I feel so, trapped in my own home. Its getting closer and closer to my 18th birthday, and my mum and I have been fighting loads more lately. It's strange, she wasn't acting like this last month, or the month before. But, now next month I'll be 18. It sounds really cheesy, but I've been waiting for this moment all my life. Ever since I hit middle school, I was like "ooh, I can't wait to be in high school". When I was a freshman, I was like "I can't wait to be a senior/18/move out..." etc. And now I am, going to be 18 so soon, it's surreal. On another note, I really hope I graduate. Being a full time college student, sometimes I forget about my high school graduation requirements like the ridiculous culminating project. I call my high school every day, and they never call me back!
Also, Valentines Day...ohh goodness. How did I end up with the girl again? I thought we were over.
And yet, I don't really know what happened. I'm not strong enough to let go. I never thought I'd be that person. Usually, I'm a strong advocate of "if it doesn't work the first time, it won't work the second, or the third, or fourth, or sixth, or hundredth.." But, maybe it wasn't meant to work the first time...Maybe it was meant to work the second time? Who knows, really? Is she even good for me? Is she worth it? I couldn't say. Quite the conundrum.